What Marriage is ...

The bonds of matrimony are like any other bonds - they mature slowly. Peter De Vries

This saying is more true than you would believe. 

Not ever marriage is perfect. no matter how much of a happy face you put on for the world. 

The hubs and I had a rough 1st year. 

He left to go back on deployment a week after we got married and had our daughter. 

Being that he was so far away caused a lot of problems. 

I wasn't the best wife to him at the time. I was immature and lost with in myself. I did some unwifely things that hurt him. 

He wasn't the best hubs either. I was called names and made to feel like shit. 

So we both had our wrongs. 

When he got home 6 months later, we moved into our 1st house together as a family.  

We had to relearn how to live with each other. I was used to be the boss and so was he. We fought to the the point where it got physical. We both throw punches and hurt each other. We said things that I wish I could take back and forget. 

It was no honeymoon the 1st year. 

Now we are well into our 2nd year and things are getting better. We are learning to listen more. We are learning to care more. We still fight like cats and dogs, but it doesn't get to the point it used to. Our marriage, our bond is maturing. Slowly, but surely I see us becoming that cute little old couple that always holds hands. 

I love being married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life. Rita Rudner

A long marriage is two people trying to dance a duet and two solos at the same time. ~Anne Taylor Fleming

( ^^^ We have the same last name. Maybe I have famous family hhhmmm...)

How perfect is your marriage? 

Why Do I?

Why do I lie? Because I hate explaining myself.
Why do I lie? Because sometimes it's easier than the truth.
Why do I cry? Because I don't know any other way to express my feelings.
Why do I cry? Because after so long it's hard to hold in.
Why do I get mad? Because sometimes I don't understand.
Why do I love you? Because I can't see living life without you.
Why do I love you? Because you took my breath away.
Why do you love me? The hell if I know.
Why does my heart keep breaking? Because I love you so much.
How many times can my heart break? More times than I ever thought it could.

Rally to 1000

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Happy Monday!

Thankful Thursday 2nd Anniversary Edition!

Today I am thankful to have reached our 2nd wedding anniversary.
Today 2 years ago me and the now hubs made our way to the court house, classy.

I wore my pretty dress, still kinda fat from having a baby a week earlier. My sexy hubs in his uniform.
It's not what most people would call perfect, but it was for us.
I don't like big parties and making a fuss over stuff, so this small wedding was perfect for me. One day we do plan on having a real ceremony, but even then it will be small.
This year has been the best so far.
We sold our 1st home and moved into a better one. We have restarted with a new slate.
I love this man more than anything. And before I get too mushy on yea, I'll stop here.
I am thankful to have a wonderful husband and father for my daughter.

Nikki and Scotty 9/01/09 to Forever!

"I rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I'm not." Kurt Cobain

After changing my layout and all yesterday I saw that I lost a follow. I hate losing follows I love you all. But if I guess they didn't like my layout of something.

Yes it's the inside of a pin up girl. I like it. I like a lot of different things. I'm not just a mommy and wife. I have always liked weird things. I love some good rock music. I like older rock music, some of this new stuff is crap. I love tattoos. I have two right now and if I come across some money I will be getting more.
Right now I'm zombies, hint why I'm writing a zombie story How Much Do You Love Her?. But I have to say vampire are still my all time favorite. If I had to be one I would be a vampire. They have cool powers and can control people. Who won't wanna control the world? LOL.
If I had a choice of what I wanted to be when I grew up I would say a pin up girl who travels the world for shoots.
As a teenager I was really into goth. Thank God I grow out of that. LOL. Now I really love the pin up rockabilly look. If I thought it would look good on me I would cut my hair in a Betty Page style, me and hub love her.

Yes that would be a tattooed Betty Page on our living room wall right behind the TV that is showing Dora. LOL.
If Who I am offends anyone than feel free to stop following me and reading my blog.
But I hope you all love me for who I am and stick around!

Fingers and Toes and Everything Crossed

So yep we found our dreams house.
Let me back up. So we close on our house Friday. Yep that's right we finally have a serious buyer, thank God. So we went out yesterday looking at houses. Mostly everything in the town we wanted were those "need love" homes. I sorry but I'm not a handy person and I really don't wanna work on a house we don't own and are going to stay in forever. Nothing worse than making something look all pretty and then moving a year later or something.
So then we went into another little town and found The One! Oh I wish I would have took pictures for you guys but I was so excited that it didn't even cross my mind. It is everything we want down to the tee.

• Hard wood floors though out
• a big kitchen
• a DISHWASHER!
• three bedrooms
• lots of closets
• fenced in backyard with a deck
• full awesome basement
• lots of parking
• in our price range

It's just amazing. My heart fulled with so much joy when I walked into this house. It just had happy vibe all over it.
So last night we dug out all the things we need to finish the application. We emailed it in and now we are waiting.
I hardly slept last night for worrying about the house. And of course planning what it's going to look like when I;m done with it.
Gosh I'm praying so hard about this house. I so hope we hear something soon about it.

Just Another Royal Wedding Post

I know I'm late, bad blogger me. But I'm sorry I could not drag myself out of the bed at 6am this morning to watch a wedding. Hell I don't think I would get up out of the bed at 6am for my own wedding.

So I watched the repeat on E!. It was such a beautiful wedding. I have never seen a royal British wedding before, so this was my 1st. I have to say their wedding was nothing like weddings down here in the south

Yup we're a little looser down here. And no way do you have to wait for us to start the kissing. LOL.

But this wedding was so pretty. It was making me wanna plan the big wedding I never had. I loved her dress and tiara. I was in love with the house and carriage ride. I wanna ride in a carriage. Kate is such a lucky girl. She came from sure a small life and now she is a princess.
I have been watching the Royal Wedding all morning and I keep pointing to the TV and telling my daughter, "Look it's a princess like on Tangled." LOL. She is even running around saying, "Princess Princess!"
  But as my Facebook status says, " ..... I found my prince. He may not be royal but he's the world to me."
This today just made me think about how much I love my husband. One day we will have our big wedding and it will be royal to me.
Hope everyone enjoyed the wedding. It was a part of history made right in front of us.
Good Luck Will and Kate. May you have many wonderful years together! And never forget how you feel on this day, make it late forever.
Now on to the hats!

Really ladies?! I know the hats are a British thing. But I think this one went a little Gaga. Some were really pretty, like Kate Beckom was so pretty with her baby bump and hate. But please lets not see this Gaga style hat again.

A Thank You to all my Followers

I am now up to 101 followers. That is a place I thought I would never get to. I never thought my life would be so interesting that people would wanna read about it. LOL! But I guess it is because you all are here.
I thank all of you for reading. This blog keeps me going sometimes when I feel all alone. I know I can come here, write it all out and y'all will be here for me. Thank y'all so much with all my heart!
A heads up on what's coming up in this wonderful bloggy of mine. I have two new reviews coming up and a new giveaway in the works. I will be posting coupons along with my reviews so stay tuned.

And I would like to throw out a quick pray for the people of Japan. They are going through a really hard time and have lost many. I pray that they lose no more and that we can help them all we can so that they can rebuild and move on from this horrible time. I also pray that people back here and get in contact with their family back in Japan. God bless them.

XOXO
Nikki Darlin'

My Love Letter

Our love started off young and not sure. Just hearing your voice I knew I wanted to meet you. You told me you loved me and I knew I wanted to marry you.

You put a ring on my finger and I knew my life was complete. 09-01-09 was the best day of my life. You made me, as clique as it sounds, the happiest girl alive.

For the rest of my life I'll know you were my one true love. The one who loves me above all others. They one who protects me and helps me through life. We have been through some hard times and come out alive. I am still very sorry for the pain I have caused you in the past, but I know as we go forward in life that I can make your life happier and full of joy.

The army took you away for a very long year of my life. I missed you with all my heart.

But in the time you were gone, I gave birth to our little blessing. A daddy's girl from the beginning. She is a living, breathing proof of our love. She loves you more than anyone.

Our family might be young, but that just shows that we have some many years of happiest together. Forever and always, to death and back. I love you Scotty D. Fleming more than the stars and heavens.

XOXO
Your Love, Baby Girl.

Best Valentine's Day Ever

Most of my Valentine's Days have been spent alone in my lifetime. I didn't date much in high school and the serious relationship/s I had never lasted around this time of the year. I never had someone to take me out and buy my candies, other than my mom.
This year was different. Not only did I have my daughter, she was really fun this year. Last year she just kinda set there. This year I had my husband as well.
My day started out great. I got to get my baby girl up and give her her candy and gifts. She loved the mess out of it all.

Then her day just got better my mom and sister came by and gave her more candy and a balloon and a bear. She a lucky little girl.

Then my day took a turn for the worst. Scotty's mom called. LOL! No, she called and said that Scotty invited them down today. I flipped!!!! He knew how important this day was to me. Why would he do this? I was so mad. I text and called him at work but no answer. I was pissed for about 4 hours.
Then he finally called me back. I flipped out on him. In turn I find out that his mom misunderstood what he had said to her, like she always does. He asked when were they coming down again and she got out of that, come down tonight. Don't ask her mind works on it's own level.
So I got  all pretty and we sent Skylee off with her granny to eat dinner. Scotty took me to see Gnomeo and Juliet. Super cute movie. I loved it. Then we went out and got milk shakes.
Best night ever. It was simple, but so sweet. Just the way I like things.

XOXO
Nikki Darlin'

A Valentine of 1st

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! Hope your are with your loved ones.
This year the the 1st year Me and Scotty get to spend together out of the three years we have been together. The 1st year he was off training for deployment. The 2nd year he was deployed and now this year, we are together. I'm so excited and happy about today. I got my present early. Friday I got a new cell phone.

And of course I got a pink cover. Every year I have gotten a new cell phone. I like them better than flowers and candy. LOL.
Skylee got some of her gifts yesterday when we went to the store she saw a big frog with a heart hanging from it's mouth that said Kiss Me. She saw it and took off across the store to get. I told her to put it back that we weren't paying $10 for it. Then Scotty said why not? His such a push over. Then I made her this basket,

My mom always made us basket for holidays. So that's what I'm starting with Skylee.
Now for Scotty I didn't wanna ask for money to buy him anything because he would ruin a surprise and bitch about the cost LOL, so I made him this,

A Coupon Book.

 Because he works so hard.

 Because his ALWAYS asking for this.

 Because he says I always get to pick.

 Because he says I bitch too much.

I think he'll like it.

XOXO
Nikki Darlin'

It Just Fell Out

I was laying on the couch the other night when I rubbed my ring finger and felt something kinda weird. The stone on my engagement ring with GONE!!!! My heart sunk into my stomach and I felt my eyes burning. I looked at the empty spot in my ring and cried, " Honey the stone in my ring is gone." 
God was so on my side right then, I moved the blanket I had been covered up with and there lied the pretty pink stone that made my heart melt the 1st time I saw it.
Ok I picked out my own engagement ring. If I wouldn't have there's no telling what he would have picked out. It was Christmas 2008, we were flat broke but so in love. He would ask what I wanted for Christmas and I would say a ring.
We were out at Walmart just to look when he spotted one of those Walmart credit card apply here machines. He started applying and I walked away to look around. The machine just happened to be located right beside the jewelry department. I have been eyeing this ring for months. So when he was done applying and approved, holding this slip of paper has a temp credit card, I asked if I could just try it on. I slipped the ring onto my finger and my heart flew. It was a size too big but I didn't tell him that. We started to walk out when he turned around and ask, " Do you want me to buy you that ring?" That was it, I thought he was joking so I said of course. He turned around and went back and bought the ring, my engagement ring.
We got the car wea he just handed me the box. Too happy to complain about the lack of romance, I slipped the ring onto my finger and kissed him!
That was it, in the Walmart parking lot, we got engaged.
I know it's not fairytale, but it was perfect to me.

XOXO
Nikki Darlin'

Keeping the Love Alive [ Guest Blogger ]

By: Anne Marie



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For Christmas 2005, my husband and I were making about $23k a year combined, trying to care for our 8 year old and pregnant with our next. We lived in a tiny apartment and had no room for a tree even if we could have afforded one. I apologized to Halie and told her Santa would still find us even without a tree. We were at a dollar store one day and she spotted this tree "poster", the kind with hinges, that was about 5" tall. She got super excited and said "Look Mommy, you don't have to be sad! We can fit this tree anywhere!" 

So I bought it and there was a perfectly empty patch of wall next to the couch that it fit on. Add a side table and we had a place to put gifts "under the tree".  She really showed me that year that it you don't have to have a fancy tree with lights and garland to have a Christmas. All you have to have is love. She wasn't worried about the tree. She was worried about me being happy.

I've tried since then to make sure we keep that love alive always, especially at the holidays. We give to toys & coats for tots and the holiday food drives. As soon as Kaelyn (the belly baby from 2005) is a little older I'm going to try to take them to volunteer more. They remind me that the holidays are about sharing love and making others happy, and I don't intend to let them forget!

We're also blissful proof of the adage "We may not have it all together, but together we have it all!" Things have started looking up since then, but I'll never forget that year.

 

[ Thank you Anne for sharing this with us. It's truly heart touching and reminds us what Christmas is all about. ]

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Psychedelic Sunday

I'm joining the blog hop Psychedelic Sunday hosted by Stash Mama.

Is it wrong to wanna spend time with your husband with no one else around. I'm sorry if that's selfish, he seems to think it is. I just love him so much. After a year of him not being around due to a deployment, I like having him around. I like spending time with him and just him.
I love our daughter but I don;t always want her around. I know most moms would agree with me. Kids are great and all, but sometimes you need mommy and daddy time. I seems to only get that between him working, doing his school work, me cleaning and taking care of Skylee. Then he has friends and family. I'm starting to feel I'm coming in last. I know his got a life outside of me. And it was my choice to be a stay at home mom and devote my life to him and our family.
But I miss our "us" time. Things are just so busy, while for him anyways. It's hard to find time.
I don't know. Just feeling a little bummed right now.

XOXO
Nikki Darlin'