Now tell me does this make me a bad mommy? If it does you can tell me, I surely feel like a bad mommy right now. I'm listening to my, just turned today, 16 month old crying because she's refusing to take a nap. And I'm refusing to get her out of that crib until she does.
I have so much to do today. I'm setting here now with dirty clothes up to my knees, dirty dishes to my elbows, and Lord knows I need a shower. I floors need cleaning, the bathroom need to be bleached like crazy, and the beds need making.
I'm not ready for Christmas, I'm just not. I didn't get everything I wanted to buy. I feel so bad for my hubby. I just did have the time nor money to get him what I wanted to get him. He says it's okay, but it's not. He got me boots, a outfit, and a starbucks mug. ( I haven't wrapped them. I'm wearing them tomorrow.) This really makes me feel down in the dumps because I love giving way more that getting.
And still she cries. She's understand one day that mommy needed time for herself. Even if that time was to clean the house ( and do some blogging). She'll thank me one day for doing all this. She'll see one day that I'm only going all crazy mad woman because I wanted her to have a good Christmas. Why am I kidding myself. I know she'll never really thank me. I don't think I ever even thanked my mom like she would have liked. I should call her now but I know she's going all crazy mad woman too, trying to made everything perfect for my little sister and Skylee. I do thank her, so I guess in a way I know Skylee will be thankful too one day.
But until then, she's crying and I'm cleaning.