My name is Nikki and I am ...
Please don't judge me. I get enough of that in real life from everyone, close and far. I am not going to talk about my relationships or sex, just my feels.
Here's my story.
I have always found an attraction to women. Even at a very young age. But I also knew I liked boys too. For a long time I just pushed back feelings and thought they were ok, as long as I didn't act on them.
I didn't know what bisexual meant until I was abut 15 or 16 years old.
It was then that I knew what I was and why I was feeling the way I was.
I grow up around some gay people. One of my mom's closes friend is a lesbian and I knew what that was and even got a chance to go to her wedding.
So to say I wasn't fully in the dark. I just didn't know you could like both sexes at the same time.
When I got to be about 17 or 18 being bisexual became like a trend.
This really pissed me off. I hated that fact that girls were using each other to get a guy to like them. I found this totally wrong in so many ways and found it just hurt peoples feelings.
To be straight ( lol had to throw a joke in here somewhere.) I believe in being with one person at a time. In no way am I like a swinger ( no offence to swingers, whatever floats your boat.), that's just not me.
I told my husband from the beginning what I was and what I believed in. I also told him if he could not handle that then I didn't need to waste my time with him.
Thankfully he understood and we moved forward with our relationship.
I am married to a man as you all know and whatever goes on in our relationship or bedroom is between us and is a mutual agreement.
I am happy in my marriage and life.
I am happy with who I am and how I feel.